Inner Monologue


I jot the words down on the page, they mock me
They whisper, this is slop

The words turn around slam the door and lock
But I keep writing I can't stop

This suit of minced meat is too small, doesn't fit
feelings it leaves uncontained, inadequate

it quivers when I need it to be still
It betrays me like teen love will

Constant questioning, what is the meaning
my mind plays tricks, it's screaming

Overthinking snowballs mindchatter shatters
Inner world now epicenter outer one doesn't matter

The sounds are too bright, the lights too loud,
my thunderous heart needs to escape this crowd

I jot down words that quiver, they whisper inadequacies
They betray me with their shape shifting and jealousy

Words that play tricks, conspire and snowball into reality,
Get recited by hungry hearts and crowds without morality





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